Thoughts on having another boy...

Today I had the 20 week ultrasound and after we heard that everything is going great with Baby B's growth and health we found out we are having another bouncing baby boy. Now I am not going to lie...I was a little sad. I am elated that he is healthy and I know that "everyone says" you should just be okay with that, but I did want a little girl to add to the family.

I sulked a little today, called my mom and cried a bit and tossed the 5 girl items I purchased at a consignment sale in the "TO CONSIGN" pile. I pretty much acted like a brat. Tonight I took some time to relax, think and reflect on everything....I feel a lot better. Here are the realizations I have come to:

I don't enjoy hair bows. My high school cheerleading sponsor had to almost wrestle me, hold me down and force me to wear them. She once put a ripped up a white t-shirt in my hair because I "forgot" to bring my bow. Not a fan.

Barbie is not real.  I had a couple of holiday Barbies, but I never even took them out of the box. Wasn't big on her at all. No car, no house, no go. Maybe I always knew deep down that no woman could have boobs that big, feet that small and not fall down.

Dirt does not scare me. Neither do bugs, haunted houses, sliding into second base and skinning my knee, snakes (on or off a plane) or much else. I'm just the right material for raising a pack of boys. I was quite the tom boy when I was little. I played with my brother, had pine cone wars and wore blue jeans in the trenches. 

I have a road map. I always say "Oh, I got this!" and this time around I can say that with full confidence. I have been down this road. The tiny penis does not scare me Baby B! I'm fully versed in trucks, choo choos, (Jimmy Choos as well), robots and all things Elmo. We can have a great road trip...I have a map.

So after more of these types of mental conversations that went on inside my more level head this evening I have determined that I am probably not "girly mom" material.  My mom said something very wise to me today "Sometimes life gives you what you need and not what you want." She is right. I need another little dude in my ranks. Plus...Walker is going to be an awesome big brother. I mean he will just love his little bro and they will be next HGTV Property Brothers, Peyton and Eli Manning, Mario and Luigi...you get my drift.

So long live brothers...and let the nursery planning and name searching begin.